It’s been a while since I have posted anything and there are several reasons for this. This sort of follows on from an earlier post of mine about there is a peice of me missing https://steven-sexton.uk/there-is-a-piece-of-me-missing/
In part I have been through a lot this year dealing with the passing of my father, his funeral and dealing with his estate. It’s surprising how much it has taken out of me, both physically, mentally and emotionally.
Then there is work. The company have been very good in letting me have time to deal with my father, which is really good and appreciated. However the time and effort it takes playing catch up with all the stuff I wasn’t able to do. That takes a lot effort and time, which is also draining mentally and physically.
All of this has had an impact on my drive and enthusiasm for doing anything. Which in turn has made it harder to catch up with stuff and do things, both at home and at work.
It is frustrating when you feel you should be doing all of the things that you would be normally doing. But being drained, feeling down, having feeling of not having any energy or enthusiasm is difficult and challenging.
The danger is you stay feeling like that, that nothing chnages or you don’t feel like changing things. I think there were times when I could have quietly happily stayed like that, almost just giving up.
Fortunately I managed to have a good break over the Easter Holiday. The break seemed to recharge me, my drive and enthusiasm seems to have come back and I am starting to be back to my old self.
Am I fully back to my old self, not quiet but nearly 100% and making good progress. I have been went to see a therapist friend of mine for some Reiki which has helped a great deal, we also had a good catch up and natter.
So I am doing more and hopefully I will be posting more.