There are just times when you have had enough.
Life is still good (ish) but I have been really struggling to manage my diabetes for the last week or so. I have had type 1 diabetes for the last 35 years and I have been on an insulin pump for the last 20 plus years. I generally know how to manage my DM and the different situations without to much hassle. The NHS diabetes team say it is well managed and for 90% of the time it is.
When things do go array and they do from time to time, I can usually figure out why and deal with it with no problems. Generally its no big deal. However, it starts to become an issue when you get extended periods of the BGs level just bouncing around for no discernable reason.
However just every now and then….
For the last couple of weeks it seems that it doesn’t seem to matter what I do. The blood glucose levels just keep bouncing around
It just seems to go berserk and have a mind of its own. One minute they are absolutely fine, the next minute they are sky rocketing through the roof. Or they are remain stubbornly high and wont come down or they are coming crashing down.
It becomes annoying and frustrating when low glucose alarms go off during the middle of the night. You have to get up and deal with it by having something to eat. Sometimes the low alarms will go several times during the night. I don’t mind the occasional midnight snack but at times it just gets ridiculous.
Then there are the high glucose alarms, when the BGs decide to go up through the roof. This has been happening regularly at 3-4am in the morning. You have to get up and deal with it. Unlike low glucose levels there is no quick fix to bring down high levels. it can several hours to get them back down.
I literally want to stop the world and get off
Living with diabetes is a like having a second full time job and everything you do impact on your BG levels. It is there 24/7, there no days off, no respite, no holidays. When it is relentless as it has been for the last few weeks it just becomes frustrating, and annoying. You and I have got to a point where you start to think enough is enough.
It just becomes so frustrating I just want to stop and take a few days off to have a break and recover but you can’t.
Things are improving
Just as things suddenly started to go haywire, things have now suddenly seem to be back on track. I still have no idea why but they seem to be.